"So how was the first day?" Why does everyone and their mother ask me that? Well, it was surreal (hehe, #bigword lol, jkjk) But it was... After dismissal, when I said goodbye to my boyfriend, when I went to band practice and started practicing my flagwork... did that just happen? Did I just do that? This whole day of unfamiliarity, the only thing that felt normal was him and my flag. That was the most vibrant thing I can remember about today. How long is it going to take me to get used to this? Will everyday be this strange and confusing and blurry?
Why does this seem like such a big deal Kim? We've done first day of kindergarten, made it through first day of middle school, and breezed through first day of junior high, so why is this so hard? Why is this so foreign? Why is this so different?
The first day sets the tone for the whole year, I don't want my whole year like this. I don't want to feel like crying because the morning was hard and I don't know what to do. I don't want to say, "close enough" all year. I don't want to be unprepared all year. I don't want my year to be like today...